That evening, Paul needed to go to town and buy some things for the farm, and I decided to go with him. I didn’t think I could stand another minute of just sitting in the house. I couldn’t figure out what God was doing. Did He expect me to wait for the rest of my life for things to get better?
My
leg hurt after the long day, so I grabbed my other crutch, and followed Paul to
Dad’s truck.
Paul
was totally quiet as we drove to town, and I felt glad. I didn’t want to talk
either.
Rifton
is five miles south of the Canadian border, and almost five miles south of us.
Our farm was practically on the border, and several times Dad had pointed the
line out to me so that I wouldn’t accidentally wander across illegally.
I
enjoyed sitting and looking into Canada but sometimes, like today, I wished we
could just move to Canada and start over. Things had gone from bad to worse and
I was losing heart. I had been waiting on God for weeks and nothing had
happened.
I
followed Paul around the store as he looked for the best deals and stood
patiently as he added things up in his head.
“Nice
crutches!” a crude voice said. “They’re just perfect for a cripple like you.”
I
turned around and found myself face to face with a guy not much older than
myself. Although I could tell he wasn’t very old, he was stocky and didn’t look
like he avoided fights. He also didn’t look like he lost many fights.
I
turned back to the shelf expecting him to walk away. Instead he reached out and
pulled my hair.
“Oww!”
I spun around as fast as I could on my crutches.
“What
ya gonna do, huh? Your daddy’s in jail, he can’t rescue you.”
Paul
calmly stepped in front of me. “Leave,” he said simply.
“Well,
if it isn’t the mute boy actually talking. I hear you don’t talk cause you got
a stttttuuutttterrrrrrr,” the boy mocked. “And isn’t your sister the girl with
that creepy white hair?”
Paul
simply grabbed my arm and started walking away.
“What
are you chicken or something?” he yelled after us.
I
stopped and turned to face him. “Stop it!” I said.
“Aww,
isn’t that sweet, you’re trying to protect your brother.”
“My
brother can protect himself,” I said firmly, “but he doesn’t pick fights with
losers like you.”
“Amy,”
Paul’s voice came firm and low. “That’s enough.”
The
boy stuck his tongue out at me and I started to pull my crutch up to hit him
but Paul pulled me back. “Let’s go.”
The
boy yelled insulting comments after us but Paul didn’t stop. He walked straight
for the cashier counter, purchased his items, and we went back to the truck.
“Why
didn’t you fight him?” I asked. “If I were a boy I would have punched his
lights out.” I bit my lip the moment I said it. It sounded like something
Sylvia would say and I regretted sounding so harsh.
“It
wasn’t a fight worth fighting,” Paul said.
I
stared at Paul. “Doesn’t it make you mad when people make fun of you?”
Paul
nodded. “Sometimes, but it’s not worth fighting over.”
Paul
drove
north and headed home.
“How
do you stay so calm?” I asked. “You’re always calm!”
We were halfway home before Paul spoke. “Amy,
I used to get mad when people made fun of my stutter, but then I realized that
they just didn’t understand. It’s not my job to force people to understand.
It’s my job to love people. It’s my job to be like Jesus. It’s my job to turn
the other cheek.”
Like
normal, Paul only said what he felt he had to and then he lapsed back into
silence.
“Paul?”
I paused and chewed on my bottom lip. “What exactly is worth fighting for? You
said it wasn’t a fight worth fighting but what kinds of fights are worth
fighting?”
Paul
stared across the fields that rolled by. Finally he spoke. “The only fights
worth fighting are the fights of faith.”
I
frowned. “Like what?”
“Like
when you believe in something. It’s always worth fighting for the things you
believe in.”
Paul
was silent again, and I sat thinking. Was I fighting any fights of faith? What
did I believe in?
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